so, my parents are thinking of moving.

it’s a weird feeling. in one sense, i have become so adept at being on the move. in college, each dorm room had a shelf life of nine months. in that time, you would put up posters, move in furniture, figure out the angles and spaces where you could change without exposing yourself to courtyards full of foot traffic, etc.. then at the end of the year, you’d move everything out.

in the last few years spent on and off the road, dave and i have each mastered the perfect one bag pack. coupled with a trusted sleeping bag and my *ridiculously* comfortable pillow, i can survive for two weeks without laundry or shirt recycling.

but move moving is different (similar to like liking in grade school).. leaving our house (we moved here when i was in 7th grade) means that in a matter of months, we will be able to quantify all of our worldly possesions.. which is crazy.. when i use to box up my dorm room at the end of the year, i always knew that this was only part of a collection of objects that i had acquired over the course of my lifetime. there was always a hidden stash of notes and pictures and paper footballs and coin collections waiting to be rediscovered in a dusty attic or in the far recesses of a hall closet. there was always a sense that the vague memories of childhood might have a physical signifier that existed somewhere, in some closet, in some box.

do i still own a piece of my yellow blankie? i’ve wondered that for a long time. in a few months, i might know.

i’m extremely frustrated right now.

in the car tonight, while stuck in traffic (it was 8:30pm.. yea LA), i hummed the chorus to what was destined to be a great euro dance hall anthem that would then cross over to the states, specifically to LA, because it’s thematic elements included traffic and sex.

and i was going to describe this song and its formative lyrics here on this blog, for the historical record, to prove that i knew that this was the night when i wrote the song that later got me on the cover of Rolling Stone and into the arms of Natalie Portman, etc. etc…

and now i forget the melody.

damn it.

(once, while drugged, i also solved the problem of poverty, but i couldn’t remember it in the morning).

history is a crazy thing.. as i get further away from my college experience, i am realizing that studying the actions that people took before us is probably pretty worthwhile (which is silly, because when i was in school, i was all about current issues). to use a nautical metaphor, today, right now, is the surfacing edge of history’s iceberg and, as dicaprio and dion emotionally proved, bad things happen when all you see is surface.

did you know that when gorbachev instigated glasnost (which literally means “public voicing”, according to my google search) in the U.S.S.R. in the late 1980’s, all he was looking for was a breath of less stale air within the communist framework? let a few newspapers run opinon pages and that sort of thing. i feel like i was brought up on the idea that he was a revolutionay, when in fact he was a fairly conservative politician who unwittingly started the leak in the dam.. (amazing how dams break so well, how entropy rules atoms and empires and everything in between).. within a few years, the republic he had ruled was gone.. crazy shit.

i’m not sure that you can defy history, individually or collectively, try as you may